Friday, February 29, 2008
I decided that every once in awhile, I will find a picture that depicts how I'm feeling, and post it here. =) They say a picture tells a thousand words right? Hee.
For this week, it's this picture above. A little gal wearing a pretty pink dress and holding a bunch of colourful balloons. Lonely but happy.
Why such a contradictory clash of emotions? Well. Hmmm.
Lonely because jw is not here and I haven heard from him awhile. His phone line is spoilt and he can't ring back to Singapore. And he's also MIA-ing in emails and I'm still waiting for him to reply me on all the ROM updates I've given him. =) I hope I don't sound like grumbling, cos' I'm not. I'm really excited to hear his feedback on our wedding song (which I played and sang and recorded last nite using damn simple chords on the piano and a $12 microphone, keke), on my ROM dress, on the invites I did for our relatives and frenz, on his tots about how I'm thinking of decorating the chalet etc. It's like, this week has been an almost sleepless week but I felt I accomplished much and I want him to be as happy as I am about how things are progressing. Hope he will be back in action soon.
Well, so I admit I am feeling lonely, which actually I shouldn't be cos' I have my wonderful jie meis all ready to help me and I'm meeting up with the sports class pple for nice dinner at East Coast Waraku tmr. Wooo, & yesh I'm going seashell collecting tmr! Alas I gotta teach till 5pm and I only have 1 hour to roam around East Coast hunting for nice seashells. I was emailing a good fren this week, and we mentioned in our mail that frenz are ultimately different from bf/gf, and much as frenz are wonderful, there's a limit to how much they can do for you and sometimes you just wish you had that special someone by your side, for you to hug when you go to bed. When you are lonely, you end up only hugging the pillow. Quite true. So I now can't wait for April to come soon.
Well, but there's really no point in sinking yourself in sorrow and loneliness when there's so much out there waiting for you to do and explore right? I had fun shopping at Popular twice this week. Yesh, Da Zhong Shu Ju. Bought near $200 worth of art materials and stationery. Madness! =) But I realised I really love art & craft, and there are so many things I wanna do to decor the chalet or make as a gift for jw. IF only i HAVE the time. Feels like 24 hours per day is not enuff now. I wish I had more. To do the invites, to try out new origami, to record songs, to do our video, to SLEEP. Haha. All in all, I am still happy. Happy to slowly see my fruits of labour. Happy to know my frenz are going to witness my joy on 26 April. Happy to know jw is coming back.
Happy to be me.
More updates here next time.. See if you can guess my mood from the pic.. =)
~Summer~ 10:47 AM