私の志望は何ですか。。私は知りません。。

Some people think that I am a forever happy girl, that I am someone who doesn't feel sad because there's nothing in my life to be sad about, or that I am someone with enough strength and courage in me to overcome my life obstacles so that I can always present a cheerful and optimistic outlook..

Yeah, probably there's an element of truth in every of those statements. But it doesn't take much to know that no one's life is perfect, and no one can be happy for every second of his or her life, if not, it's not called life anymore. Life comes with it its happiness and sorrow, we cry when we are sad, and knowing how crying feels, we laugh even harder when we are happy.

I get sad when watching a sad movie.. easily..

I get sad when the lyrics of a song touches my heart..

I get sad when my friends are sad..

I get sad when dear scolds me..

I get sad when dear is sick..

I get sad when I miss my mummy and feel homesick..

I get sad when I fare badly for my test..

I get sad when I think about sad memories..

I get sad when my cooking turns out horrible..

I get sad when popo said she fell down..

I get sad when dear and I have bickers..

I get sad when I think bout ishi..

I get sad so, so, so many times in my life too..

I guess, I am normal.. HAHA.. yeah yeah, I get happy easily too, that doesn't erase the tears, but makes them more worthwhile I guess.. Every sad I went through makes the happy happier.. =)

So, the point of this blog is, I was dreaming for the past hour.. Yeah, not the real kind of dreaming, but just letting my mind wander off because I simply cannot concentrate on my books as usual.. I thought about my friends in S'pore, I thought about my ex-boss, I thought about my past job, and my mind was a blank when I thought about my future job..


I dreamt about opening my own bakery called Summer's Bliss, 夏の幸福, and I will specialize in doing personalized cakes for people, especially kids if possible.. It always makes someone happy and touched to receive something personalized, I feel.. =) A good way to spread love!! What's more, designing cakes is a form of art & craft, and I love the process of using your heart & soul to create a masterpiece of your own.. But well, I don't even know how to use the oven, so goodness, why did I have the thought??!!


I dreamt about continuing my Summer's Learning Paradise, and be a teacher to kids forever, because it's undeniable that I love kids and I wanna touch their lives and share in their innocence and joy.. As I said before, kids have a way of making me happy.. But well, somehow, being a teacher doesn't feel like my real ambition.. I don't know why..

To conclude, I am so totally lost whenever I think about this.. I think bout my buddies in OMD last time, Elv who is probably learning her way up in F&N now, and Mitch who's also working hard in Canon.. Me, well, I'm in Sweden! Haha. Like many people will think I should proclaim, this statement "I'm a blissful tai tai and spend all my days doing nothing but shopping and idling!" doesn't seem to suit my mouth. Actually, I don't want to be doing nothing. I guess that's why I signed up for the mba and jap courses even before I reached Sweden. I wanna be of use, I dun wanna lose years of my youth and go back to S'pore realising that I can't catch up or fit into the work society anymore. That thought, is scary. Afterall, I still consider myself not that far from a fresh grad in terms of work experience, but when I go back to S'pore, I'll be 29 and where will I stand?


Well. See. Think so much. But that's me. I think alot. Like most girls, I guess. I didn't find an answer to any of my thoughts, so I turned over and looked at jw, who was sleeping like a baby beside me. Haha. And well, I guess, he's the answer. Regardless of what may happen in the future, he's here with me in my life right now. And instead of worrying about the unknown future, which will still come one day no matter if I like it anot, I should cherish the present that I have. I do think that life is good and happy now, for us, and I enjoy every day of being together as husband and wife. It might not be easy to find a good job next time, but it's even harder to find someone who loves me with all his heart, and hey, I achieved the latter! Waha. Sad thought are dispelled from my mind in a flash. And yes, I'm still very happy. =)

So, cheers to the many more happy moments that we are going to spend in Sweden. And may each day bring with it even more joy and surprises for us, darling! Nitey and hope you are having sweet dreams now! =p