Friday, November 30, 2007
Just this morning, I was the chirpiest person in my team, rattling to my colleagues that I'm going for Xiaozhu's concert tmr, and beaming all the way while staring at my PC and doing my work.. I will also remind myself that jw will be back in 3 weeks from today, and we will have a wonderful 2 weeks together planning for our wedding. Can't stop showing the joy on my face once I think of that. =)
Two hours ago... I spoke to jw on msn, and somehow the whole conversation ended on an unhappy note. It's our 52nd monthliversary yesterday. Things shouldn't be lidat. I dunno what's the problem with me, with him, or with us. Maybe the whole long distance thing is wearing us out, and what's more, we have a tremendous amount of wedding preparations to do. But I must admit that I am enjoying the planning process, although more often than not, I'd wish he was here with me instead of beings miles away from me. Sigh. Nvm. We just need a few days to tide over. & things will be back to normal, I hope.
Now, I'm feeling more at ease. I dread the feeling of tears in my eyes, and I wanna tell myself that once I wipe them off, they won't come back again. So it's back to work time. =) & I'm still feeling elated and thrilled about going to the concert tmr and also to the Stanchart marathon on Sunday.
How can I feel so many emotions in just half a day? How can joy and sadness just come and go so quickly? I don't. & I'll never know. Maybe one day when i become a psychologist, I will be better able to understand how humans function.
For now, I think I just need to learn to take everything easy, and enjoy each and every moment of my life as it passes. I've always been an optimistic person who sees most of the things in her life half full, and I hope I can always stay this way.. Life just becomes so much more of a joy when I learn to enjoy it..
Sorry jw.. If I said anything rude or tactless.. & a happy 52nd monthliversary to us.. We'll celebrate the next month together okie.. =) BIG celebration.. tata..
~Summer~ 2:36 PM
Thursday, November 29, 2007
~Summer~ 2:02 PM
Sunday, November 25, 2007
~Summer~ 11:31 PM
Monday, November 19, 2007
Sunday is also one of my fav time of the week, because it’s FAMILY-day! & when jw was here, we will eat wif my mummy & popo every Sunday, bringing them to different places to try out different food, & then head home for a couple of rounds of mahjong, AND then head back to his house for dinner with his family. Keke. Sundays are usually quite well spent. =) Now that jw is not around, I still try to eat wif his parents and my family regularly, and still play 3-kah mahjong with my mum & popo. Sometimes I will hang out with my frenz, and sometimes I just enjoy the feeling of being able to nua at home and watch TV/DVDs.
Yesterday was a very fruitful Sunday for moi!! Keke, I quite amazed myself by the number of things I accomplished in a day. Lalala.
1) I went for my usual piano class at Yamaha at 10am. Am quite thrilled that we are now starting to play using both hands, and I definitely need to memorize the base clef notes soon!! I downloaded the music score for Pachelbel Canon today and I swear I am going to master this song one day. Kekeke. Along with some other Chinese songs that I really really like.
2) I went to take my first Gardasil jab at Tampines Blk 201B. It’s the vaccine to prevent cervical cancer (effective for women aged 9-26), and to be taken over the course of six months. Have been procrastinating for long, after my colleague Janice told me about it months ago and she had advised us to go get it while we still can. Guess the fact that I realized, after 10 years, that my mum had cervical and not ovarian cancer really woke me up. So, there you go, $200 for my first jab. Next one will be in Jan next year and the last in May. It’s not 100% foolproof, and only prevents up to 70%, but it’s definitely better than nothing.
3) It is Ishi’s 26th Birthday tmr. =) I stayed up on Sat and did up a scrapbook pg for him. Wrote down the lyrics of the song ‘Gao Jie’, because everytime I hear it, I think of him and I find the lyrics very meaningful though sad. Bought 5 white roses for him too. No $$$ to buy a bouquet, so bought loose stalks instead. I guess it’s fated that I didn’t bump into anyone when I was at the temple yesterday, so I had the opportunity to spend some alone time with him. Told him about my upcoming wedding plans, told him how I would have loved to have him as my wedding singer, shared with him about my life, shared with him a lot, and told him I missed him. Saw some flowers by his locker. Guess he’s still missed by a lot of pple. I sat there for around half an hour, before I went to burn the card for him. The shifu who directed me to the stove was quite bemused initially to see me holding the card and asking for directions, and when she asked me what is it, I said it’s a birthday card. Is it that people only burn paper money? I dunnoe. But I dun wanna burn paper money, I just wanna burn my card. Happie Bday my dear fren.
4) Had a haircut at Icon (by Shunji Matsuo) in Century Square after that. Cut my fringe short again, and trimmed my hair only by a teeny bit cos’ I’m going to let it grow for my wedding. Keke. Thought of highlighting my hair again since it’s been black for half a year, maybe I’ll do it when I get my next pay. Keke. Do you think I should have coloured hair when I go for my wedding photo shoot? Haha. Dunno. Still pondering bout that, but anyway have yet to fix the date of the shoot. =)
5) On my way home, I bought Old Chang Kee curry puff for my dear mummy. Keke. Was thinking of whether I should catch a nap, but decided to keep up the zest and Ta-Dah, I finally tidied up my little room and mopped the floor. Keke. It’s scary, but yes, I finally emptied the luggage bag I took back from Europe. Some of my clothes were still inside along with some other barang barang. Wahaha. Also went through all the goodie bags I got from media events/wedding exhibition and went through bags and bags of books/documents I took back from jw’s house. Keke. FINALLY. Threw away a lot of unwanted stuff. & at last I have enough space to lay out the keyboard without it seeming too odd. YAY!! It’s really hard to get yourself motivated enough to do a spring clean, but honestly I think the results of it will make you very proud and elated. Haha. Don’t you agree?
6) It’s not like I have more than 24 hours a day, so the sun finally started to set on my Sunday. At 6.30pm, after the heavy rain had stopped, I stepped out of the house and made my way to jw’s house for dinner with his family. Hee. Was thrilled to see xuanxuan and yuheng again, the cute little kids. Yuheng is 7 months old now, and gosh he is such a cheerful BB!! He can look at me, and then laugh, look at me again, and laugh again!! High-pitched, loud laughter. & his eyes will become mi mi yan, which makes him really really adorable. I was thinking maybe he’ll be afraid of me since he hasn’t seen me in months, but well, *phew* he wasn’t. Jw’s mum said I got xiao hai zi yuan, cos’ last time xuanxuan liked me too. Hehe. I hope so!! Maybe being wu lao shi really helps. Haha. I hope my kids will like me next time too. So, we had a nice dinner together. & that marks the end of my Sunday.I guess I’ll be very tired if all my Sundays are like this. But well, though exhausting, it was indeed very fulfilling and I went to bed feeling happy. OH, & you won’t believe it but I dreamt of Jay Chou last nite and we were in the same sch and went for dinner with three other classmates and ALMOST caught a movie together on our own. How weird. Must be listening too much to his songs recently. Cai Hong and Wo Bu Pei. These two songs are really nice! If you have time, do go listen to them.. =)
Tata..
~Summer~ 4:08 PM
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
I guess it’s just one of those times in my life where I’m wondering why I’m doing all that I’m doing. Sometimes I feel like a lost sheep, and try as I might, I can’t seem to figure out the direction I want in life. I don’t wanna be lost and unseen in the herds of sheep, I wanna be the special one that wanders out on its own and explores a whole new different set of sights. I don't want a routine life, I need something exciting, something that makes my life worth looking forward to everyday I wake up.
I guess, I am in need of passion. I really am. Neh, I’m not talking about my love life, it’s as blissful as it can get for all I know, because I’m preparing myself to walk down the aisle of love with Junwei next year. Maybe the fact that he’s not here for the past half a year does cut back the sizzling passion in my life a little, but honestly our love hasn’t changed much and I would say in fact it grew even stronger than before.
What I need passion in, is my day-to-day job. I always think back about how I aspired to be a novelist all my life, how I felt the desire to be a psychologist, how much I loved Maths in sec sch and JC and how I arrived at the decision of studying mass comm amidst the sea of faculties. Weighing between accountancy and mass comm, I decided to go for the one which I deemed as more fun, challenging and demands much more creativity. Yeah, I was right. Media is fun! I get to work with movie clients and get invited to gala premieres, I get to travel on company incentive trip to overseas (we went Tokyo this year!), I get to work with airline companies, household appliance brands, beach resorts, credit card companies, I get invited to media parties/launches with endless good food and free flow of alcohol, I get to see MediaCorp stars once in awhile, I learn about the advertising and media scene, I get a huge sense of satisfaction when I witness my media placements airing on TV or see my outdoor ads at bus stops, I learn to use research software and greatly improve my MS excel, I get to work with a bunch of passionate, creative, energetic people etc. See? There are a lot of things I gained from my current job. Moreover, we just clinched the Media Agency of the Year award.
But amidst all the glam of it, sometimes I do wonder whether the long hours spent at work are well worth it, and is this where I wanna head along for the rest of my life. Do I feel a sense of satisfaction strong enough to keep me going? Am I learning enough to make me realize if this is the right industry for me? Should I keep going in the same direction or should I take a turn and try another road? Some of my mass comm friends have abandoned the industry, moving on to areas like banking or HR. I guess it’s natural to run after the pot of gold, but I don’t want it to be sole factor for causing me to give up my job. Sure, I still have endless bad debts to clear. Tonnes of it!! Study loans, insurance, hp bills, internet bills, blah blah blah. & I gotta remind myself to scrimp & save but still, everytime I receive my paycheck, half of it is used up to repay the loans. Gone in a snap. How I wish I can give mummy more than 200 bucks a month, but it’s quite beyond my reach at this moment. How I wish I can save up more for our fairytale wedding, & dat we could go for overseas photo shoot, but we gotta be realistic and plan within our means. Well, but again, wish as I may, hope as I might, I don’t want to be a slave for $$$. NEVER. Money shall not be the determinant of what I do or how happy I am in my life. As I said before and still strongly believe in, the happiest of people are usually the ones in the poorest countries. Because they learn to appreciate the goodness in life and are easily contented. Zhi zu chang le, right?
So, much as I feel I need a passion injection in my life right now, I hope I will make a decision because I believe in it, and not because I feel that I’m compelled to. I’m going to be 25 next year!! Time really flies and I hope when I’m still young, I can try out new things and learn as much as I possibly can. As the saying goes, you never know till you try. SO, sometimes we really should not think too much or else we will always be afraid to take that first step. Life is so short, why are we so afraid to try new things while we can?
Haha. That said, I’m still waiting for jw to announce whether he’s extending his stay in Sweden for 3 more years. Been waiting for months, and I think we still need to wait for a couple more months! Sigh. It’s affecting our wedding plans, such as when we can conduct our photo shoot, but well, no choice. Half of me is pinning to go over and stay with him in a foreign land and enjoy our newly wed life. I will be studying in the day and he will be working, and in the evening we'll stroll to the supermarket to get groceries and then go home to cook our dinner, and on weekends we will go for road trips with his frenz or simply nua at home and watch dvds. Another half of me just wants him to come back and life will be back to the way it used to be. On weekends we will eat with mummy & popo and then play mahjong, on weekdays after work we will go chill or watch movies or sing ktv. Once in awhile we will have BBQ at his house or go fishing or rollerblading. Both sound good to me, so long as we are together side by side.
Well, we shall see what fate has in store for us. & in the meantime, I will still be on the search for my life passion. Have you found yours? I sure hope so. Tata!!
~Summer~ 11:22 AM
Monday, November 05, 2007
Do you have a wish that you've been holding onto since childhood days? Well, I guess I do.
In lower Primary, I tried to learn the piano, but when my teacher migrated, I did not continue. I think I was only at Grade 1 or 2!! But I still remember how my theory book looked like. =) & I remember I had fun recognizing the musical notes (looked like bean sprouts dun they) and I like the feeling of my fingers on the piano keys. I don't think I am musically inclined, but I do adore the melodious sound of the piano, even up till now.
But as time passed by, slowly, the dream of me being a master at piano eluded me. Or rather, I eluded my dream. I can give a thousand excuses for my action, like no time/no money/have better things to do/too much school work on hand blah blah, but they are ultimately excuses. If I have anything to blame, blame it on my lack of peseverance.
As the saying goes, it's never too late to learn. So guess what? I'm now taking Yahama pop piano lessons on Sundays! Wahaha. Yeah, it's not the exam kind, but rather, it's more for leisure which is what I am looking for. My friends think I'm crazy, because I work in OMD Mon-Fri, I teach at Berries on Sat from 8.30am to 3.30pm, and now I'm taking piano lessons on Sundays at 10am. Wahaha. It did sound a bit crazy to me, but hey, lessons are at Yamaha Tampines Mall, which is near my house wad. Not dat bad rite? Keke. I was very motivated by the uncle who sat beside me in class. He's like in his mid 40s, but still putting in alot of effort to remember the notes and be able to play. How can a 24-year-old gal like me give up on her dream so easily?
So here I am, in my second month of learning. Keke. $75 per month, still quite affordable. I hope I can learn to play using both hands soon! & hey, I've decided the first song I learn on my own (after I get the chords right) will be the Wen Hou Ge (aka Peng You Ge that Xiaozhu sang in Zhuan Jiao Yu Dao Ai). It symbolizes friendship, and also reminds me of the memorable scenes from the show. Love it.
Working hard towards my little childhood dream.. =)
~Summer~ 5:00 PM
Friday, November 02, 2007
My friends say I'm a person who doesn't like to sleep.. HAHA.. which person in the world doesn't like to sleep & nua if given the time & the chance to do so? Hmmm. They are so wrong. I LOVE to zzzzz.
But, it's just that somehow it became a habit to sleep late. & slowly, it turned out that I need minimal sleep but can still feel energetic the next day. It's been like that since hall isn't it? During FOC initiation, while waiting for all the orientation groups to be done and we can proceed to the final station at the pond, my group mates were all dozing away. I was the only one sitting up, stubbornly insisting that if I went to sleep for half an hour, I will end up even more lethargic and restless. HAHA. & I remember that was one of the first few times jw came over to talk to me. Although for awhile only lar. But anyway, my first impression of him wasn't that memorable or great because he seemed like just a playboy senior who likes to talk to gals. Oops. See. First impressions can be so wrong, because, it turns out he's of the best people I know in my entire life.
Still remember those days in hall, we will stay up watching tv, playing mahjong, going out for late nite suppers, have drinking sessions, watch dvds/dramas/play PC games, have talk cock sing song overnight sessions, organize hall BBQs, have bonding sessions blah blah blah. Basically, we lived the life of an owl and spent the daytime sleeping but had endless night time activities. Of coz, not to mention, we would mug overnite when exams drew near and when project deadlines were killing us. See, wif such a lifestyle, I of course learnt to master the art of not sleeping. BUT well, I have concluded that such an unhealthy lifestyle will cause me to grow old at a faster pace than my pals. I will FEEL old and LOOK old, so I'm now trying to regain the sleeping habits of a normal human being.
That said, I just went KTV last nite till 2am when i had to wake up at 7.30am this morning for work. Haha. The lucky huimin and yijia, either worked afternoon shift or didn't nid to work today. =( Unfair. But errrmmmm, I was the one who suggested gg KTV. At 8.30pm. So huimin and I left office and met each other at 9.30pm and before we knew it, we were already inside Kbox, armed with McChickens for our dinner. Keke. & Yippie, I'm finally a Kbox member! Waha. (hmmm, i wonder where did I misplace my Partyworld membership card..it flew away somehow). KTV is such fun. Helped me to destress and cheer up alot. Saw the coroner's report on ishi in the papers today. I dunnoe how it affected me, but i just felt down in the dumps the whole day. & had to work OT till 8plus, so I reckon I needed to do smtg to relive life and gain back my cheerful self. Thanks to yijia and huimin who were so onz to join me. Keke. & yijia actually travelled all the way from bedok after his table tennis tournament, and on the way to marina he had to alight at his house to change bus, and although he hesitated, he still didn't go home and came down to join us. That's the spirit!! Haha. Jiang yi qi people, are the reason why there's eternal friendship.
Anyway, I've been really busy this week getting hotel quotations for our wedding (slated for 26 July), conducting site recces, pouring through and analyzing the proposals, having talks with the hotel pple etc. Real BUSY! & I have to do this in between or after work, so you can imagine how hard I am trying to multi-task. Keke. (oh yeah I am multi-tasking now that's why I can blog!) Have toured Rasa Sentosa, Regent and Swissotel. & gotten quotations from another 6-7 hotels. Hope to finalize the venue next week, since everyone is telling us 26 July is quite a popular & auspicious date. Wish jw was here though. I can imagine all the fun we will have going down to the hotels, visiting the ballrooms, choosing the invitation cards/guestbook designs & wedding favours, having fun bargaining with the sales pple. I really can imagine it. But too bad, we can only communicate through emails/phone now and it's a challenge to articulate all the descriptions of the site recces to him. Keke. But so far so good. Luckily I have the badz gals with me each step of the way. Thanks to Huimin who went to the Style Weddings exhibition with me (the high tea was yummy rite, & daniel ong/jaime teo were so entertaining as the emcees!) & also for doing the Rasa recce wif me. Thanks to Diana for gg to Regent wif me and for being so attentive! (sorry to get us lost, i'm such a map idiot). Thanks to Haz for listening to the Swissotel presentation wif me, and also Huimin, though you arrived only when everything ended. *chuckles* but it's the thought that counts!
You know what, I have just so many ideas in my head and so many things I wanna go about preparing for our wedding. It's simply exhilarating and worth looking forward to!! Hee. Jw and I have already said that we muz enjoy every step of the planning journey. When we finally tie the knot, we will look back with a smile and realise that everything was well worth it. So no matter how tired, how poor, how busy we are, we will make it a smashing celebration. Keke. Hope we can keep the zest and enthusiasm going, I'm sure we can!!
Some things really occur only once in a lifetime.. (ermmm, I hope I only have ONE wedding!) So really muz enjoy it and make the best out of every second. Esp the planning process, because of all the effort and sweat and blood you put in, you will then savour the fruits of your labour to the max. Right??
A FAIRYTALE UNION
~Summer~ 3:56 PM