Thursday, January 31, 2008
~Summer~ 9:57 AM
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
Time to prepare and welcome the year of the rat! It was only last year that I wrote an article on my blog about how I loved CNY, and before you really realise it, another year has flown past. Really scary. But well, I am so excited to once again hear New Year songs on the streets and on radio, go Chinatown and shop for New Year goodies, go hunt for New Year clothes and basically just indulge myself in the happy and uncomparable atmostphere of CNY.
Yeah. Goodbye to year 2007. Thinking back, I can't say I really loved the year of the pig, because several unhappy and bad things did happen to me, or the people around me, or the people I love. For the first time in my life, I felt very lost, very unsure of my next step, and very much in the dumps. The only good thing, well, actually it's the BEST thing, that happened to me was getting engaged with junwei on Eiffel on July 29. Yeap. I would like to believe that this good thing that happened is more than enough to cover up for all the bad things. =) It definitely is.
So now, I'm bracing myself up for an exciting year ahead. Hee. Well, it'll be a great year!! Cos' I hear wedding bells ringing. Hee. Yeap. For me and jw. It was once my fantasy to get married at 25, and now it's coming true. (although I think 26 or 27 is an ideal age). Wahaha. But 25 sounds good. 2925. Our age! Which helped jw to strike 4D second prize before he left for sweden. Hehe.
Anyway back to CNY, well, alot of people keep reminding me that this is the last year I can get Ang Paos. WAH LAU. I noe larrrr. Haha. So I'm going to enjoy this feeling lor. It will feel quite weird initially to give ang paos instead of receiving though. CNY is one of my most lucrative period okie. Hee. But well well, muz prepare myself for this change. Keke. & enjoy this year while I can!!! Wish jw was here during CNY though.. Things ain't going to be the same wifout him by my side..
Gong xi fa cai!! Wan shi ru yi!!
~Summer~ 2:54 PM
Monday, January 21, 2008
~Summer~ 3:38 PM
Sunday, January 20, 2008
I woke up with puffy eyes today.. Slept at 5am this morning..Well, no one did anything to make me cry. No one.
But I just did so... After reading it..
I wonder why I can cry so much over movies, drama serials and books. It's like, the tears juz well up uncontrollably. Is it just me, or do alot of gals do that too? I wonder. It's been long since I cried like that over a book. The last was over James Patterson's novel. But well, it wasn't even half of what I teared yesterday over Judith McNaught's Perfect. Thanks to Val for lending me this book.
The book talks about the love story of Zachary Benedict and Julie Mathison. Zach was a well known Hollywood director and Actor, who had several academic awards in his bag. (it was interesting to see names like Kevin Costner, Barbara Streisand and Jack Nicholson appearing the book, as well as the glam parties of Hollywood, as well as how it depicts the crew and their roles during a movie filming). Due to a bad childhood, where he was outcasted and thrown out of home, Zach basically shut everyone out of his life. Despite being devastatingly charming and devilish handsome, he had built this wall around his heart and had a cold attitude towards many things in life.
Judith was a school teacher in her small but warm hometown. She too, had a bad childhood as she was abandoned by her parents right after birth. She went on the wrong side of life, and took up habits like pickpocketing, hot wiring cars and lying to everyone around her. At age of 11, she couldn't even read directional nor toilet signs, despite being an extremely bright kid. Her life took a turn for the better when the Mathisons adopted her and treated her as if she was really their little princess. She grew up to be a real pretty lady with a lot of heart and goodness in her to offer, and she taught the handicapped children and also started courses for women who couldn't read. (now, that is something i will wanna do!!) I love this line from her, she said that teaching grown women who cannot read, and helping them to pick up confidence in their lives, is like 'holding a miracle in your hand'.
Anyway, the gist is, during a movie that Zach directed, which involved gun shots in the last scene, his wife Rachel was killed when the bullets, supposedly to be empty shells, were swapped with real bullets instead. Zach, who had walked into the hotel room previous nite and caught Rachel and her lover commiting adultery in bed, became the prime suspect since he was also the director who changed the script at the last minute and caused Rachel to be the victim instead. As a result, he was convicted to 45 years in jail. 45 YEARS! for a murder he did not commit.
After 5 dreadful years in jail, he decided to break out. (oh yeah, i was reminded of Prison Break when i read this part). He had the perfect plan with perfect help from his fren's relative whom he paid a quarter million. Haha. However, things went abit wrong in the middle, and he was stranded without a car with all the FBI right on his heels and he was a wanted man and news was broadcasted all over the country. (don't forget he's a hollywood star who had charmed the whole female population previously!) By a twist of fate, he ended up 'kidnapping' Julie who happened to be driving home alone that day. By threatening her with a gun, which he would never have used and would never have hurt her, he got Julie to do what he wanted, to drive up to his deserted house in Colorado.
It was there that they spent a full week, and well, though they were loggerheads every now and then, and Julie tried to escape twice, somehow fate still brought them together. I love the part where she secretly escaped using a snowmobile, and Zach kept chasing after her in another. When he saw her overturned mobile, he thought that she must have fallen into the icy lake. Truth is, she was hiding in some pine trees behind, watching his every move and devising her alternative escape route. She witnessed Zach removing his jacket and throwing himself into the icy lake, searching and calling frantically for Julie. Which, as a result, caused him to half freeze to death. When he could not find her, he simply sat down, without his jacket, and attempted to let himself freeze to death. Julie was shocked, and deeply moved. She tried to revive him when he fainted and with determination, flipped his body onto the snowmobile and brought him back to the house, covering him with tonnes of quilt beside the fireplace. That was when they discovered their passion for each other. The kidnapped falling in love with the kidnapper. What a plot.
Well, I'm not going to write the entire story here. It's a thick book, with over 800 pages. So did he get acquited? Did they get together? There were so many twists in the story, and many of them touched my heart. Especially when they wrote letters to each other when they were apart. I also like reading the parts when they made love, as if they were perfectly made for each other. It's like reading a love novel, but yet it's also a detective mystery with all the suspense and it was also exciting to read how he planned his escape from the country with the Interpol and FBI on his heels. Love it. Never a dull moment. That's why I read from 5pm to 5am, with sheer determination to finish the book.
Have you wondered how do you know when a woman really loves a man?
Zach knew it, because when he was a millionaire reduced to a convict with nothing to offer a woman, no future, no $$$, no family, Julie was the one who stuck by him and never gave up on him.
I once asked jw why he would like a gal like me too. (yes, the hard question that gals always like to ask) No $$$, no looks or hot bod, and endless tantrums for him to bear with. (hmmm, right, not so jialat lar, at least I have a heart to offer. Haha) He told me a similar thing. He said when he flunked his final year results, failing his FYP and stats (for the 5th time), and a good chance of being retained and having to paid liquifying damages to the navy, I was the one who was by his side, didn't despise him and didn't leave him in the lurch and went in search of someone better.
Is it true, this "When I had nothing left in my world, you were the one who was there for me.." theory? Is that how we really differentiate true love from superficial relationships? I dunno. I guess it does, to a certain extent.
Zach's previous wife and all his flings were Hollywood actresses who were superficial, only after his $$$ or his looks, or craving to have this award-winning director cast them in his next show. They were pretentious, materialistic, and FAKE. Julie was the only one true to ther heart, she was innocent and genuine. Oh yeah, she was fearless and she scolded Zach alot during the kidnap, but at least she was BEING herself, and not faking it.
Alot of people in the real world are pretentious too, don't you think so? Kinda irritating isn't it? & worse is when you can't tell whether he/she is real or fake, till something bad happens in your life, and you start to discern who are your true frenz. Something bad HAS to happen, before you realise who are the ones who walk away, and who are the ones who stay.
I guess I'm glad I found alot of true friends in my life. And jw, well, there's no debate and no doubt to his personality. He is who he is, and never for once in these 5 years had he pretended to be what he's not. So, if you really love him, you will love him for he is. I dunno how to express my thanks to him for also accepting me whole-heartedly, for who I am, and never asking me to change for the better. I guess, he is the one who taught me the meaning of true love and acceptance.
Perhaps we are really perfect for each other. =)
Well, I dunno why I'm getting so emo nowadays. (or maybe I've always been so). I can feel tears in my eyes even when I walk home alone after my piano class, when I think about our love and what we've gone through. When I think about the joy we are going to experience together. When I think about how blessed and fortunate I am. It's not pre-wedding blues ley (cos I cry for happy reasons, not sad reasons), so I dunno what this is.
But honestly, crying makes me feel good sometimes. Yeah yeah, call me weird. But I felt good after last nite. And somehow it makes me even more appreciative of my life and my love and the people around me.
That's all I have to say for tonite. =)
~Summer~ 11:53 PM
Monday, January 14, 2008
Sharing with you our wedding band designs.. to us, the meaning, symbolism and love embedded in the two little rings matter million times more than the diamonds.. =) cheers to our fruits of labour! and thankew Fairy's Inc!!
~Summer~ 1:18 AM
Tuesday, January 08, 2008
It felt great to be side by side wif jw once again. Being apart for 8 months (well, except for our Europa trip), sometimes it feels that things have changed, sometimes it feels that nothing had changed at all. You know wad I mean? The first few days he was here, we quarrelled and executed cold wars like nobody’s business. Haha. Silly arguments, trivial causes, foolish acts, insensitive behaviour. Jw will definitely say I’m the 100% cause of it. But as gals always say, there’s no smoke without fire and for her to react in such a way, the guy must have done smtg to upset her. Waha. But let’s not go into the Mars and Venus debate now. (which I must admit is a good book and we ought to give it a read. Even if you are like jw who doesn’t believe that a book helps in anything, you should still give it a try. =p)
However, I must admit that I feel I’m a total idiot sometimes. Can’t control my emotions, can’t control my behaviour, can’t control my mind. Sigh. Need to work harder on that. Though sometimes I do think life will be boring without the bickers to spice it up. Some may think I’m nuts, but I do think it’s true. Like what I told jw, the couples who often quarrel and fight are actually the ones who love each other most and they often last a lifetime. Those couples who seem too perfect for each other, well, eventually their smooth love journey becomes bland, flat and monotonous and they stay together for the sake of staying together. Hmm. ABSURD theory rite? I dunnoe. I believe in it. Haha.
Rite. Enuff of my theories. Back to us, we spent a good two weeks together after we recovered from all the ‘battles’. Here’s us at Vivo wif the gigantic X’mas tree. We are quite good at zi pai (aka taking pictures of yourself), or rather, jw is better at it than me lar. Heehee. We took tonnes of pictures at Eiffel like this. Damn pretty lar. Hehe. Well, this pic is also quite nice too rite? Hee. Muz be contented!!
Guess which is my hand and which is jw’s? Waha. We cracked our brains together to come up with the chorus for our wedding song. And Ta-dah. He came up wif the melody and I wrote the lyrics. =) Yippie yay. It’s a reallie simple melody and simple words. But it contains our sincerity and our love. Woohoo. Although there’s now a high chance that we will scrape the wedding song due to budget problems, I still feel happie that we at least wrote smtg that belongs to us. (errmm, any of you can play musical instruments or do the music arrangement for us? It will cost us at least $2K to outsource. *shakes head*) I suggested for my jie meis to sing acapella. HAHAHA.
We miss wearing our couple shirts. Jw actually went to dig out all the couple shirts when he got home. Wahaha. I guess we had like nearly 10 already!! Ain’t often that a guy dun mind and actually likes to wear couple shirts. So, I quite applaud him for that. Hee. *pats jw’s shoulder* Oh, but that’s not half as loud as how much I applaud him for finally kicking away the nicotine in his life. Oh yeah! HE DID IT. We are on our way to a smoke-free home and family. I guess it’s one of his biggest achievements so far bah. I dunnoe. It juz makes all of us so proud of him. That he finally kept his promise. His parents muz be even more delighted than I am.
We bought this to play wif. Wahaha. I think I insisted on it. Looks fun wad. 7 mini sports, including table soccer, pool, bball, bowling etc. Really mini. The cue looks like a chopstick lor. Keke. But we had a fun one hour exploring it and playing table soccer and pool. =) As expected, I lost at both lor. But I had fun!~
Our trip to the zoo was also immensely enjoyable. I think it was fun having his parents, xuanxuan and yuheng with us rather than the two of us alone. I still remember our first trip to the zoo, during my second year, when I was doing my CS202 Visual communication project. We even took an expensive photo wif ah meng’s cousin, Anita. Keke. Dat was fun. Gosh, that was over 4 years ago. How time flies. Thinking bout it, it really makes me feel that it’s not easy for us to have walked this far, and trust me, I’m gg to cherish it. I know jw will too. True love ain’t easy to find in this world. So glad I did.
~Summer~ 2:07 PM
I guess jw and I really like kids alot. We had loads of fun playing with xuanxuan and yuheng in these two weeks that jw was in spore. Finally, his nephew had the chance to see his shu shu. The first time they met was when he was 2 days old and that was it, jw took off to sweden soon after. We had fun talking to them, taking care of them, buying prezzies for them, playing ball with them (we even played soccer wif xuanxuan!), feeding them, carrying them, and bringing them to the zoo. =) Hengheng's first visit to the zoo, I guess. There really is never a moment of silence with kids around. We totally understood that. Haha. Never a moment of silence in the car, never a moment of silence in the zoo, never a moment of silence at home. Well, except when they are zzz-ing. So, jw asked me teasingly,"Are you sure you wanna have BBs?" Haha. Sometimes I wonder that too. *winks*
But I figured out it's all part and parcel of life. When I have too much silence around me, I crave to hear the voices of the little ones. When they get too rowdy, I desire for a moment of peace. Men are always unsatisfied right? I wonder when we will learn the true meaning of contentment and why is it that the grass is always greener on the other side. But well, for all that said, both of us still love kids alot. Maybe for the first year as a newly wed couple, we ain't ready to tackle dat phase yet and we will love to enjoy er ren shi jie life first. There are so many things so many places out there waiting for us to explore. But soon before we know it, I guess, we will be anticipating for our little one to arrive.
I'm quite certain jw will be a better daddy than me as a mummy. I still feel like a kid sometimes. Wahaha. Well. But I'll try my best though.
May all the little ones out there enjoy every moment of their growing up and may we, the old (I mean oldER) ones, never lose the child in us..
~Summer~ 1:36 PM