Friday, October 19, 2007
I have a keen interest in psychology since young, and human behaviour never fails to intrigue me. It always triggers off a lot of “Why?” in me, and sometimes, much as I crave to know the answer, I will never do because humans are creatures too complex for anyone or anything to truly understand. Don’t ask me why I didn’t further pursue psychology & ended up in mass comm. Because, I ask myself that too, sometimes. & yar, I still dunno Why.
Back in sec school, a friend once told me he finds me complex and unpredictable, never knowing how I will react next. But yet, some other friends comment to me that they think I’m a very simple person, or even naïve, because I only see the good in the world and not the bad. Well. Did I change along the years? I dunnoe. I don’t really bother much about what people think of me, but it was just fascinating to hear opposite comments. Simple or complex? Wise or silly? Gullible or contented? Truly happy or optimistic? Sometimes, there’s just a fine line between the two. & depending on where your feet are, you see it from one angle this time, but once you shuffle abit, you see it from the other.
Everyday, you find reports of accidents/deaths splashed across the papers. People die naturally, people die of illnesses, people die in accidents, people die because other people kill them, people die for no reason. It’s just scary how life can be brimming at this moment, but vanish in the next. I wonder what determines our fate, and why is it that good people die young and bad people can live long. It seems childish to ask that, but really, how I wish I had the power to give life. Yar, if everyone can have one superpower, that will be my choice. The Life Giver. But that only happens in sci-fi films, not reality. & I will never have the ability to extend anyone’s life.
The badz gals honestly think the year of the pig hadn’t been a good year for us. All of us fan tai sui, and like what Jen said, it’s a da chong (major clash) for us. Almost all of us. Either had a close one departing from this world, or had freak accidents (like Huimin who suffered a hairline fracture when a padlock dropped onto her toe), or fell out of love, or had bad viral infection, or valuables got stolen and got stuck in foreign land, etc. Maybe it’s all just a coincidence, but I just hope the year passes soon and our fortunes change for the better.
Back to the point of human character, I now understand that humans are sometimes really ignorant, but yet we think that we know everything that’s out there. Haha. We think we know and have been through all the emotions out there. We think we know what is grief, what is love, what is joy, what is heartache, what is disappointment, what is betrayal. I thought I knew too. But this year, I felt so many more new depths of emotions that I’ve never felt before, that I stop in my steps and wonder whether I’ve reached another new dimension, new phase of my life. I really thought I knew and have been through most emotions, but everytime, each one hits me so hard and so deep in an area of my heart that I never knew this feeling existed. Both good and bad, I felt it this year. & that’s when I realized how much more I have to go in my life. How much more there is for me to undergo. How much more joy and bliss I have to enjoy. How much more grief I have to endure. How much more love I have to give and receive.
There are still so many mountains of joy waiting for me to mount, like settling down, having my home, having our own kids (I dreamt of jw and I with our little baby girl in our arms yesterday, can you believe it????), growing old with jw. There are also still so many dark alleys of grief I am going to have to walk, like when my family members leave me, when my body starts to malfunction in future, when my friends lose contact with me one by one as we age.
There’s nothing as blissful as seeing new life coming into this world.
& there’s nothing as sorrowful as saying eternal farewell to someone.
It’s lidat isn’t it? We can’t change these facets of life. We can’t. We just gotta be strong and live on. We gotta be strong for ourselves, for our loved ones, for our friends.
I will be strong. I promise. Jw will be even stronger, I know that. I hope you will be strong too. =)
~Summer~ 4:40 PM
Thursday, October 18, 2007
Quite funny.. A simple way to look at some definitions of marketing..
1. You see a gorgeous girl at a party. You go up to her and say: "I am very rich. Marry me!" - That's Direct Marketing"
2. You're at a party with a bunch of friends and see a gorgeous girl. One of your friends goes up to her and pointing at you says: "He's very rich. "Marry him." -That's Advertising"
3. You see a gorgeous girl at a party. You go up to her and get her telephone number. The next day, you call and say: "Hi, I'm very rich. "Marry me - That's Telemarketing"
4. You're at a party and see gorgeous girl. You get up and straighten your tie, you walk up to her and pour her a drink, you open the door (of the car)for her, pick up her bag after she drops it, offer her ride and then say:"By the way, I'm rich. Will you "Marry Me?" - That's Public Relations"
5. You're at a party and see gorgeous girl. She walks up to you and says:"You are very rich! "Can you marry ! me?" - That's Brand Recognition"
6. You see a gorgeous girl at a party. You go up to her and say: "I am very rich. Marry me!" She gives you a nice hard slap on your face. - "That's Customer Feedback"
7. You see a gorgeous girl at a party. You go up to her and say: "I am very rich. Marry me!" And she introduces you to her husband. - "That's demand and supply gap"
8. You see a gorgeous girl at a party. You go up to her and before you say anything, another person come and tell her: "I'm rich. Will you marry me?" and she goes with him - "That's competition eating into your market share"
9. You see a gorgeous girl at a party. You go up to her and before you say: "I'm rich, Marry me!" your wife arrives. - "That's restriction for entering new markets"
~Summer~ 12:02 PM
Friday, October 12, 2007
Okie. Well, honestly I dunno who you are out there who’s reading this, but if you are one of those who have been wondering about our wedding plans, here’s an update.
THE INITIAL BIG IDEA
Our initial plan was to rent an Aloha resort (those big bungalow type like the Fairy Point chalets, SAF chalet), dress it up into a wonderland (like Hensel and Gretel), have all the kids dressed as angels, elves, fairies, have colourful cakes and drinks, have ALL our guests dress up according to the fairytale theme (if not we won’t let them in) and award a best dressed prize at the end of the day. Of cos, jw and I will be the Prince & Princess for the day. Giao jie (jw’s cousin cum my make up artiste) said she will be my Fairy Godmother for that day. Keke.
Well, that WAS the plan.
Alas SAF chalets are under renovation, Fairy Point chalets are fully taken up from end Dec to New Year, and Aloha took more than 2 weeks to finally reply me and they said weddings are NOT PERMITTED in their chalets during school holidays. I wonder what kind of rule is that. But well, they should have told me earlier or at least give me a contact number when I enquired. But they didn’t. They said I HAVE to wait for them to call me. Oh well. So, I think we ain’t going ahead for this.
Well, that WAS the plan.
Alas SAF chalets are under renovation, Fairy Point chalets are fully taken up from end Dec to New Year, and Aloha took more than 2 weeks to finally reply me and they said weddings are NOT PERMITTED in their chalets during school holidays. I wonder what kind of rule is that. But well, they should have told me earlier or at least give me a contact number when I enquired. But they didn’t. They said I HAVE to wait for them to call me. Oh well. So, I think we ain’t going ahead for this.
THE NEXT BIG IDEAS
We also explored the idea of a yacht wedding, which sounds perfect for us. Got quotations for Harbour Queen and Fair Princess and SAF Yacht Club. But, either the price was too steep, or the number of guests is so limited (150pax), or regulations too strict (like they say 1 BABY = 1 PAX charge for the buffet even if he drinks milk all the way), causing us to have some hesitation about it. I think we would love to invite as many people as possible! Firstly we are the kind who love a BIG party and love to invite all our friends/families to share in our joy. Secondly, he has been away for so long and it’ll be good for him to catch up with friends he hasn’t seen in such a long time. Too bad, we ain’t filthy rich or we will cater a cruiser! Keke.
We also explored hotels (my fav is Changi Village Hotel, poolside, where Alan Tern and Priscelia Chan just held their wedding) and country clubs. Prices are not cheap (almost like a customary wedding dinner), and if you want peripheral things like DJs/Games Emcees/ Sound system/Wedding décor/Wedding theme, everything comes at an additional cost. Well well. Not to mention if we wish to invite many people, the price will sky rocket. So, I think the chalet idea is still the BEST. Haha. Can stay over for at least 3D2N, can DIY all our décor and add in our personal touch, can invite as many people as we want, can jam music all the way, can have overflowing booze all night long, can play rowdy games, can KTV, can play mj/cards. That’s very OUR style. Simple, cheap, casual, party style, wild, non-conforming. =p BINGO.
But well, seems like plans are stalled at the moment. We are considering to push back the ROM and hold it together with our customary in June/July next year. Maybe that’ll be good too. No need to hold on separate occasions, no need for our guests to headache over to give ang pow anot, no need to plan twice. Agree? Hey, if any of you has any good lobang/idea, sms me ley. Hehe. We welcome all ideas. =)
Till then, we’ll keep our friends/families posted on our final decision. Hehe. One thing is for sure though. We ARE going to get married, one way or another. Good things are always worth waiting. Cheerio.
One way or another I'm gonna find ya
I'm gonna getcha getcha getcha getcha
One way or another I'm gonna win ya
I'll getcha, I'll getcha
One way or another I'm gonna see ya
I'm gonna meetcha meetcha meetcha meetcha
One day, maybe next week
I'm gonna meetcha, I'll meetcha
~Summer~ 11:04 AM
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
Wahaha.. if you haven realised, CNY falls on Thu & Fri next year!!~ Which means we can have a 4-day super long weekend.. Yippie!!~ (provided I don't need to teach on chu san lar)
Doubt jw will be able to come back for CNY.. Boo! That'll be sad.. Cannot go around visiting his relatives, collecting ang paos, playing blackjack/mj/si gi bi, eating sumptuous CNY goodies wif him and getting fat together.. Haiz..
But still.. CNY is my most loved festival of all.. & it'll always be this way.. Somehow.. Listening to CNY songs makes me happie, visiting Chinatown amidst the crowds makes me happie, gg to popo's house and doing nothing but watch CNY programs & play mj makes me happie..
Till 2008!! Hope Year of the Rat will be a better year for moi and all those piggies who really fan tai sui.. I reallie did.. because sooo many things happened to me this year that it's unbelievable how down on my luck I became.. Wahahaha.. Shall ren and jian chi dao di!!~
Buaiz buaiz...
~Summer~ 3:07 PM
Dino sent this last week.. Quite farnie.. Hehe.. We all need a good laugh once in awhile.. =p
~Summer~ 3:02 PM
Tuesday, October 02, 2007
Just last nite, I was trying so hard to think of a good fren's house number, which I used to call almost every nite in sec sch. But try as I might, I simply could not recall the 8 digits. I just can't. Why? It was all so familiar to me. We would chat almost every nite, & although his was a private number and my caller ID couldn't detect it, but I vividly remember dialling those numbers every so often. Now, I just can't remember what they are.
It suddenly dawned on me that, alot of things in life are forgotten as time passes. To an extent that it's scary. Do you have such feelings like me?
To forget how to write alot of Chinese characters.. When last time it was all so easy to us in school, now it cracks our brain to pen down some of the simplest characters.
To forget the names of some friends whom you used to see everyday. Be it in school, in ECAs, or frenz made outside sch. When you see his/her face on the streets now, you just glance at him/her for a few more seconds, wondering just why this face is so familiar. When you do remember, it's too late because he/she is probably gone or lost in the crowds. If you don't remember, well, maybe you might not have the chance to bump into him/her ever again in your entire life..
To forget that you have actually bought so many bags/shoes/clothes which are stacked away in the wardrobes. Sometimes, while rummaging through the piles of clothes in search of that fav top which i think I MUZ wear for the day, I come across so many forgotten tops/skirts/pants. Only when I lay them right in front of me, do I remember HEY i did buy all these! But why the hell am I not donning them anymore...
To forget where you put your beloved necklace/earrings/bracelet. & when you need them most like when you search frantically for them just before you attend a wedding, they are nowhere in sight. When you least think of them, they pop up right before your eyes as if to mock your bad memory.
To forget some scenes of your favourite movie, though at one phase of your life you could memorize the movie backwards and knew exactly what each actor was going to say. Yesh. You can only remember that the movie touched your heart, but you forgot why it did. You might remember the movie title & the cast, but you just don't remember the plot.
To forget the tune/lyrics of one of the songs that meant so much to you once upon a time. Try as you might when you are in the shower attempting to hum the tune, or on your bike trying to remember what were those lyrics your ex sang to you, that part of the memory is already gone.
To forget how you were as a child. Because everything dat you know about childhood was what you gathered from your parents and relatives. I don't remember I was a bad tempered child, I don't remember I only let 3 pple carry me (dad, mum & popo) and would bawl if anyone else tried, I don't remember crying till I went green in the face nite after nite and scaring the wits out of my parents, I don't remember having permed hair, I don't remember much. All I knew, I knew it from my mum or grandma. How real is this? When you don't feel it inside you, but yet you have to believe that you talked and behaved the way others say you did. It feels kinda weird, doesn't it? Maybe all children suffer from amnesia, or at least partial amnesia. Because so many memories vanish as we move onto adulthood.
Now, if that ain't enough...
What if one day...
I forget how I grew up to be the person I am...
I forget how it felt when i finally graduated from NTU...
I forget how the badminton gals look like...
I forget where I was born...
I forget how many colours there are in a rainbow...
I forget my wedding anniversary..
I forget my children's names..
Well well, that will be when I know I'm really getting on wif age.. haha.. & reallie reallie old.. I guess, well, it's just human. It's part & parcel. To live, to forget, to forgive, to move on. Maybe we can forget all the above, but if there's one thing that cannot be erased, I guess it's Feelings. We'll never forget how something or someone made our hearts feel, so long as we are alive. At least, this is how I hope so. There are so many things I hope I will always remember.
& one last thing, may we never ever forget what it's like to Love & Be Loved...Because it makes life so much more meaningful...
~Summer~ 11:34 PM
Monday, October 01, 2007
Right. Haven done moblog for quite awhile. So well, this is taken in my living room. Introducing to ya my mummy's mj haven. She'll hav mj kah kees here almost every nite n every day. Keke. All the aunties very li hai one. Professional mj players!
When jw was here, together wif my mum n popo, we would play mj every sunday too. It's popo's fav pastime, but yet she will be unhappy when she loses money. But well, wif no jw, we can only play 3 kah mj now. Popo can't wait for jw to be back. Waha. She'll be soooo bored if i decide to go sweden too.
Oki dos. Dat's all bout our little mj corner. Mj is fun! Tata!
~Summer~ 10:39 PM