I guess I really don't understand why emotions can be so fluctuating..

Just this morning, I was the chirpiest person in my team, rattling to my colleagues that I'm going for Xiaozhu's concert tmr, and beaming all the way while staring at my PC and doing my work.. I will also remind myself that jw will be back in 3 weeks from today, and we will have a wonderful 2 weeks together planning for our wedding. Can't stop showing the joy on my face once I think of that. =)

Two hours ago... I spoke to jw on msn, and somehow the whole conversation ended on an unhappy note. It's our 52nd monthliversary yesterday. Things shouldn't be lidat. I dunno what's the problem with me, with him, or with us. Maybe the whole long distance thing is wearing us out, and what's more, we have a tremendous amount of wedding preparations to do. But I must admit that I am enjoying the planning process, although more often than not, I'd wish he was here with me instead of beings miles away from me. Sigh. Nvm. We just need a few days to tide over. & things will be back to normal, I hope.

Now, I'm feeling more at ease. I dread the feeling of tears in my eyes, and I wanna tell myself that once I wipe them off, they won't come back again. So it's back to work time. =) & I'm still feeling elated and thrilled about going to the concert tmr and also to the Stanchart marathon on Sunday.

How can I feel so many emotions in just half a day? How can joy and sadness just come and go so quickly? I don't. & I'll never know. Maybe one day when i become a psychologist, I will be better able to understand how humans function.

For now, I think I just need to learn to take everything easy, and enjoy each and every moment of my life as it passes. I've always been an optimistic person who sees most of the things in her life half full, and I hope I can always stay this way.. Life just becomes so much more of a joy when I learn to enjoy it..

Sorry jw.. If I said anything rude or tactless.. & a happy 52nd monthliversary to us.. We'll celebrate the next month together okie.. =) BIG celebration.. tata..