Sunday, July 15, 2007
The first white roses i bought in my life... Jus for ishi...
Made my way to the temple on my own today to visit him. Boy, it was scorching hot when I was walking to the temple from Tanah Merah station. But well, was listening to his songs along the way and I knew nothing's gonna stop me from going to visit him today. Determination yar. =)
Was super glad and relieved that I did everything I did. From the mini booklet I made for him last week to the CD rom that I burnt yesterday with all his videos/songs/pics that I could find. I finally learnt how to download clips from youtube and convert to mpg. Wow. & it's actuallie so simple. Really wonder why I had to wait until now before I finally sat down & learn how to do it. Why did I procrastinate so much about so many things in my life. Why did I take so many things for granted. Haiz. He juz makes me realised sooo many things about my life.
Like what I hoped for, his parents were there. & we actually sat down to chat for over an hour. Sometimes I really have to believe in fate. It was fated that I didn't manage to burn the booklet last week and it was left on the altar and they managed to read every little thing I wrote inside. It was also fated that I met them today, just them, and 3 of us had a good long chat. His dad said I helped to fulfill his dream of compiling a collection of ishi's works. I just felt super glad to know that finally I did something right and something useful for his family. Huimin was saying the CD might make them sadder and reminded of him, and perhaps it wasn't such a good idea. Well, I'm so glad I went ahead with it nonetheless, & spent nites downloading and watching all his clips. Wrote a message for his parents and slotted into the jewel case, together with my hp number, in case I didn't get to see them and gotta send it to their house instead. But well, like I said, fate decided that we should meet.
Sorry to my family for missing out on the dim sum lunch, but well, nothing was more important to me at that moment than to be there with his parents, listening to all their stories and sharing whatever I could with them. Ishi, were you with us when we were talking about you? About your bedroom that's without a bed, about your first choice as comp engin b4 you switched to mass comm at the last min, about you cycling to dunman high to take a look at the sch, about you loving to eat jap food, about you always doing things last min and never buffer in more time, about you being a thrify boy and a perfectionist? I think you were. =)
Hey, I also helped one of your fans solved a Sec 4 algebra problem. Haha. I was so sure that I couldn't do it when they asked, and I told them not to have high hopes on me becase I am a mass comm student. =p But i DID IT! Haha. & glad I managed to help them, even if it's just one qns. Do you know how much they love and adore you? Your daddy mummy said they'll be there every day, rain or shine, from start till end, and when the temple closes, they will clean and wipe your altar personally instead of letting the caretaker uncle do it. The uncle says that even someone who's 100-year-old and passed away does not have the overwhelming amount of visitors that you have every single day. WOW. Really. You are loved. I hope you know that. Your parents loved you deeply too.
Was glad to spend some time alone with you at your urn this time. & hey, last time I sobbed more than I talked, but today I only shed one tear. =p It's not that I don't miss you as much, but I'm really learning to be happy when I think of you because I would think that's what you want me to do.
Will visit you again when I'm back from Europe. & soon, we will be sending you to your new beginning on 15 August. Hope you'll find your xing fu then k k...
~Summer~ 12:08 PM