Sunday, July 08, 2007
Right. Sorry I've been out of action for long. Decided to live like a hermit for awhile. To those whom I made you worry for me, my apologies. I'm learning to be stronger.
Had a Hall 6 blk 35 outing on Sat. Met up wif pple like Cindy, Diana Tay, Dino, Linlin, Zhikai, Changyao, Jiawei, Willie, Steph and Yihui. Wow. Haven seen some of them for ages. Much as I'm still trying to untie the knot within me, it still feels good to meet up wif these old frenz. esp the gals, we were once so close back in blk 35, how we participated in all the InterBlock Games, the potlucks, the night gatherings, the fun & laughter that we created in the usually quiet blk. hee. Yup. Hall 6 did have alot of my happie moments.
Finally also saw Sisi and uncle po, after such a long while. Haven been to Al Tivo for a long long time, and the view is still magnificent. It was good to catch up with her and tok about wat's up wif our lives recently. tinking of organizing a BBQ for the badz gals to celebrate dino's and xinjie's bdaes before i leave for europe. at her new house. sounds good. =) i love badz gals' gatherings.
Made a trip down to Man Fatt Lam temple today. Realised it's actually the temple that we always passed by when we go Hazel's house. Haha. But i never did know its name. Well. Now I do. It's the first time in my life I went to pay my respects to anyone. Well, my dad's parents died before i was born. My mum's parents are divorced and i dun even now who's my grandpa, and unfortunately he passed away too before i knew it. now my popo is still living and very much loved by me. So, the first is ishi. my dear friend.
Spent the whole nite and morning doing a little gift for him. wif our pics, our memories, and all the words dat i wanna tell him. not sure if he'll eventually see it anot, I'm hoping he will, but at least it feels better by letting everything out. I told him i am going to wait till the day he appears in my dreams. Haha. & i do hope when i see him, he'll be a happy person, from the bottom of his heart.
The power of time is amazing, isn't it? Time juz erases so much things. Good and bad memories, happie and sad moments, sometimes no matter how hard you resist, they all get swept away with time. Aaron said it's unfair that as time passes, there'll be a day whereby we will not feel hurt when we think of our lost friend. It's true to an extent, but I guess that's what he wishes for us to do. To feel happy when we think of it, instead of to cry. To embrace and cherish the fact that we once had our happy moments, instead of lamenting over the loss. To be contented with what we already have, instead of craving and regretting that we can't have more. Right? I hope so. & I'm working my way towards that. One day, when I think of you, I will have a smile on my face. Becos' our friendship is something I am blessed with, I am glad for, and I am contented with.
Time, don't ever take away my happy memories. I wanna write them down, capture them on film, put them on videos so that I can keep them for as long as I live. I always thought my heart is the best camera for it captures the most beautiful and longest lasting moments. But I realised the power of time is sometimes stronger than my heart no matter how hard I try, especially as I grow older and my memory is not as good as how it used to be.
Still, I won't give up. Never. The positive shuang never concedes defeat. Keke.
To my friends, I'll be fine soon. Pls don't worry for me. Appreciate each and every one of you.. Hugzzz.. We need to do some catching up soon.. =)
~Summer~ 6:39 PM