Monday, May 07, 2007
If there's one thing you can't live without in your life, would it be love or friendship? I find this question hard to answer, for as far as I know, both of them are very important factors that keep my life going as it is.
If, without love & friendship, I think my life feels like a seashell. Strong on the outside, empty on the inside. I am the kind of person who doesn't like to be seen in my weakest times, who wishes to believe that she can survive on her own, who wants pple around her to know that she is strong and not worry for her. But, I have to admit, sometimes I'm just as strong as I hope I can be.
That's when I feel glad to have jw, to have my family, to have my beloved frenz around me. From AHS sports class, to TJ, to NTU, I've been blessed with so many wonderful frenz who stepped into my life. Really wonderful. They were there when I needed them, they never gave up hope on me, they were my beacon when I needed someone to shine light on my path, they were the ones who made me laugh so ever often & became the positive & happy person that I am now.
It's only when you start growing up, start moving onto your mid 20s, start embarking on 9 to 5 jobs, that you slowly realise the most important people in your life are slowly drifting away & away from your reach. Life's like that, isn't it? Good things rarely last forever.
People step in and out of my life, no matter how much I hope and pray that they can stay. People grow up and forget about me, no matter how many a happy memory I still recall from the past. People get attached, get married, have kids and move on to what we call family life and capsizes even more of those precious ships we call friends. People grow old, fall sick, move abroad and slowly but surely memory seeps into this black hole and gets buried. What can I do?
I dunnoe. I still count my blessings and hang on to those closely knitted frenship webs I've weaved over the years. For some, I've learnt to let go slowly becos these people do not belong to me eventually. For others, we have lost contact but I always wish the best for them from the bottom of my heart. For the handful that I still meet up every week, (u know who u are hor *winks*), thank you dearies. You are the ones who will stay forever in my life.
I have so many sets of footprints left behind on my shore by frenz who passed by. Thank you for once being part of my life and you have no idea how much I treasured the time we spent together. I have few pairs of shoes in the little frenship hut I built by the beach. These belong to the ones who are staying with me, who will stick by me through good and stormy weather, who will grow old with me and still reminisce about our decades long frenship when we have grey hair. Thank you for choosing to stay, you might not know but life becomes unbearable without you all by my side.
Heehee. Sorry for the influx of tots, but that's what happens on a Monday nite. I hope all of us have 'friends for life', sometimes we don't need too many, just one will be enough. As long as it's really really for life. =) Wan anz.
"I'll give you strength, I'll give you hope. Keeping your faith that is gone. And the one you should call was standing there all along."
- "This I Promise You" -
NSync
~Summer~ 11:40 PM