Saturday, September 11, 2010
There is a saying that having a baby makes you as a mum braver than you ever were. But, there is also another saying that on the contrary, you become more fearful than before. Which do you think you believe in?
For me, it goes both ways. I am definitely braver than I used to be in some ways, but yet, I also become more afraid sometimes. Contradicting huh?
Well, let's see. Why I think I am braver?
1) I am less afraid of the dark
2) I do not fear or even mind loneliness (well, cos' I'm never lonely with baby around!)
2) I do not fear or even mind loneliness (well, cos' I'm never lonely with baby around!)
3) I no longer fear the cold (becos' all I care about is if my baby is warm and snug)
4) I do not mind getting dirty (like getting puked on by baby or peed and even shit on! keke)
I think I am braver becaue I wanna make sure my baby is safe and sound! Things that made me scared no longer do so as much. (Of cos, pls don't come and scare me with a flying cockroach!)
I think I am braver becaue I wanna make sure my baby is safe and sound! Things that made me scared no longer do so as much. (Of cos, pls don't come and scare me with a flying cockroach!)
But well, I am more scared too.
1) My heart skipped a beat when Angel fell off the masterbed for the first time. I walked in and couldn't find her on the bed and there she was, crying badly on the floor with a big bump on her head. No words could describe that feeling.
2) I get frightened when I hear her choking sounds. I'm scared that anything will happen to her and what's going to happen to my world?
3) I'm worried when she falls ill. I hear her cough her lungs out in such pain that my heart aches. I see her strengthless and pale, but I'm afraid I can't do anything more for her.
Well, so basically, I think both ways go for me. I don't know how to describe it, but anyway it's like she really means so much to me. I wanna be strong so that I can shelter her from the rain, I wanna be healthy so that I can continue to take good care of her, I wanna be loving so that she can receive the best kind of love there ever could be, I wanna do so much so much because of her. It's nice to be a mum, isn't it? =)
May my happy baby be happy always!~
P/S: Angel has started crawling and is now growing all 4 front teeth at a time! =p woohoo!!~
~Summer~ 5:03 AM