Wednesday, April 11, 2007
The world does not revolve around you...
Are you the kind of person that ponders over life when you're alone? I dunno if it's a good thing or a bad thing, but since young, I've been like that. I still remember during my free time in pri sch days, I will wonder what is life all about, I wonder why am I in this world, I wonder how come I'm a human & not an animal or even a table/chair, I wonder what forms a human and how can I be standing here talking & my heart beating away, I wonder what I was in my past life, basically I just wonder and get myself puzzled at alot of things.. Weird kid hor? Haha. But that's when I started to love my life and appreciate my life even more..
Been having an influx of emotions this week & I wonder why.. Alcohol overdose during the bdae weekend? Over-stressed at work? Despaired over jw's departure? Missing my friends too much esp friends I haven seen since I grad? Or is it just part & parcel or growing up in my mid 20s.. Dunnoe.. There are just so many maybes in life and I can have 100 qns in my mind but zero answer to them all..
& just this morning, suddenly I had the thinking "what will make the world stop revolving?" Despite I had 1hr of MRT + Bus journey to think about it, I guess there is still no answer. Maybe only the end of the world. When earth explodes and everything in the solar system turns to ashes. Or Armageddon.
If I were to die today, the world doesn't stop revolving. People will still take this train, this bus, & walk this usual route to Tanjong Pagar to work. Those who know me, might shed a tear or two. But those who dun (& I realised 99.999999% of pple dun), their lives move on as usual. It's just lidat. Losing a life or two doesn't make the world stop at its feet. Sigh. & yet life is always the most precious thing on earth.
Pls dun start missing your frenz only when they are completely gone from your life for good. It doesn't mean death, it can also mean your friendship has come to the point that it has just vanished and there's no pulling it back. If you have anything to blame, blame it on the lack of effort on both of your sides whilst the chance was standing right outside your door. You chose to keep it shut.
You know what I admire bout junwei? It's the way he manages to keep his frenz altogether as one whole big circle of frenz. Everyone integrates into the network, everyone connects, everyone accepts and welcomes newcomers. It's just amazing, to me. To me, my friends are disparate groups of pple who I dun tink will feel completely at ease or be eager to mix wif other groups. Not that they are anti-social, but just that each grp has its own unique characteristics and it's not easy to blend all into one. Or maybe, i dun wan them to blend too because this might end up losing the unique bond we have when we hang out in our own cliques. Still, I totally give it to junwei for managing to be the 'leader' & let everyone mix well together & yet be happy. I can't do it. Not that I have dat many groups of frenz to start wif in the first place lar.
My hall frenz, where are you pple.. Am I the busy one or are you all? Haven seen so many of you all for so long. I miss the LCBs, miss the softball gals, miss hanging around in 33, miss the steamboats, miss so many things I used to possess.
My pri sch frenz, Caiyan, Esther, Youwei, I'm still hanging on to our frenship and I know we will be frenz to stay.
My Onine frenz from TJ.. Good that we still have outings, although it's always the usual turnout. Hehe. Sihui & Jas, I miss those days in TJC. Both of you seem so busy nowadays. Rem our bdaes are all in April?? Have you forgotten? I haven't. & I'm hoping we can meet up to celebrate.
My CS frenz. Well I ain't got that a many fren from CS, probably becos I was more immersed in hall than anything else. My FYP grp! How are you guys? Miss the slogging and the Xbox days in my room. Still can't believe we got an A+ for our proj. My pals, xiaoling, chuanni, zixuan, dawn, yingzhen. Aiyoh. Can't rem when's the last time I saw you all liaoz lor. Tried to org so many gatherings but I always fail. Sobz. The Edel gals Steff & Jiahui!! How's life at Edel? Miss those times we had rushing our individual presentation decks and ordered in KFC to the Xbox room. My OG partner. Ishi lau! Seems ages since we last met liaoz. My kor and da-sao. Aaron & Renee! I have yet to meet little Richie yet after so long. =( Hope he's all well and barking away.
My best frenz in life. The badminton gals from AHS. Oh well, no matter how many times I see you all per month, it will never be more than enuff. =) Life is kind to all of us because we found each other. & kill me if you muz, I'll never let go of any one of you. You gals ROX!~ Till old we muz stay together, even if we get married and become huang lian po or lao popo, we will still be the badminton gals/aunties/popo. Kekeke.
Right. this must be too long a msg for your liking. See, dat's what I become when I think about too many things. I juz came back from lunch wif Elv (my colleague & best pal in OMD) and you tend to nua abit after lunch rite. Wahaha.
Shall stop. Gonna watch 200 pounds Beauty tonite. Dino said it's a darn good show. I hope it's nice too. =) Sayanora.
~Summer~ 10:00 AM