It's a Saturday, when usually I should be out partying, singing ktv or watching a show. But tonight, here I am, sitting right in front of the desk, staring at the monitor.
"I am Sam" is now showing on Channel 5. It's a really good show that touches on your emotions, and I love the acting of Sean Penn and Dakota Fanning in it. It's my second time watching the show, and just like the first time, I'm all by myself.
It's weird to be all alone in a house, a house that's not really yours. Even though I've been staying with Junwei for the past 3 years (be it in hall or his house), now that he's gone for half a month of sailing, it feels abit strange to be thinking that I'm gonna sleep here alone. A rather lonely feeling, in fact. Deep down, I do hope that once my bro shifts to his new house, I can revamp our room and tidy it and I can shift some of my stuff from here back home. I wanna paint my room green, get new pieces of furniture, and pack those 20 boxes of stuff I brought back from hall. Haha. When jw leaves for Sweden next year, I wanna move back and stay with my mummy.
Although it's only 2 weeks, it's the longest sailing trip ever. I guess we are really too used to staying together (which sometimes can be both good and bad), that we feel separated even if we don't see each other for a few days. That's so unlike other couples. I do hope I don't end up being a overly-dependent gal. That will be so unlike the past me, who was used to overcoming the feeling of being alone and could take good care of herself.
Come to think of it, loneliness isn't that scary a thing. After all, I'm not an old woman who has to stay at home in her rocking chair and knit all day long. I can still go out party, hang out with friends, go to the gym for a workout, surf net or blog, or read books (I love reading!). There are so many things I can do to occupy my free time, and I so badly wanna learn new things and gain more knowledge.
So perhaps I should stop whining and thinking too much. Instead, think about how to better make use of my time when dear is not around. =) Time is precious and I don't wanna waste it. I think I'm growing old quite fast now that I'm approaching mid twenties. Haha. Better make good use of my youth whilst it's still here.
Praying hard that jw can survive the 14D of tough sailing.. I'll miss you.. ~Summer~ 12:07 AM
My name: Summer Goh Yun Shuang
My wish: To lead a life with no regrets..
My belief: Life is beautiful & always full of hope.. Quote of the season: A baby will make love stronger, days shorter, nights longer, bankroll smaller, home happier, clothes shabbier, the past forgotten, and the future worth living for...
Although it's only 2 weeks, it's the longest sailing trip ever. I guess we are really too used to staying together (which sometimes can be both good and bad), that we feel separated even if we don't see each other for a few days. That's so unlike other couples. I do hope I don't end up being a overly-dependent gal. That will be so unlike the past me, who was used to overcoming the feeling of being alone and could take good care of herself. 
So perhaps I should stop whining and thinking too much. Instead, think about how to better make use of my time when dear is not around. =) Time is precious and I don't wanna waste it. I think I'm growing old quite fast now that I'm approaching mid twenties. Haha. Better make good use of my youth whilst it's still here.