Monday, September 18, 2006
Letting go of a deeply loved one..
When you are alone, do you tend to think about your life? I do. I look back into my past, the route I've taken, the friends I've made, the people I've loved and hurt. It always conjures alot of memories, both happy and sad ones.
It's not that I wanna dwell in the past, but I believe that everyone has his own unique history, and it's our own life experiences that make us grow and mature and become better people. Looking back into the past lets me think about the person I was, and the person I am now.
Do you realise how much you've changed, say from secondary school till now? How have you matured, or are you still a child at heart? How has your thinking liberalised or changed? How has your love life developed and what have you learnt from failed relationships?
For me, I was once a silly fool and an idiot who let go of a very precious love. Don't ask me why. I don't know what happened either. Probably I got too immersed in uni and hall life, that I took the love I had for granted and thought it would be always here to stay. Till one day, it finally dawned on me that the love was gone. He was gone, and never to come back to my side again. I was such a fool. I realised what I've let go of, and no amount of tearing is going to help because he already had someone new. He told me about the hurt I had inflicted on him back then, and how it took him so much to move on. It was then after that the pain came through to me, but I knew I had to move on too, no matter how much strength it would take.
Please, don't be like me. Don't realise your mistake only when it's too late. It ain't easy in this world to find a person whom you truly love, and who loves you just as deeply in return. When two people fall in love, there ain't no promise that the love will be eternal. But you gotta try and not give up easily or you may never find it again.
I don't know why I'm thinking about this so much tonight. I went throught the box in my home that's filled with these past memories. The gifts, the letters, the cards, the love that was buried in the past. There will always be a mark in my life, because I can never make up for my grave mistake.
I learnt my lesson the hard way, but I swear I will not let myself repeat that mistake again. My fate brought jw to me, and we've stuck together through the sun and the rain for more than 3 years now. My longest love so far. Sure, there were times when I wanna give up, times when I thought he's not the right guy for me. BUT, I tell myself to stop having negative thoughts anymore for the simple fact that I love him. The one thing I'm sure of is that I don't wanna lose him. Never Ever. I will kill myself if I make the same mistake that I made 4 years back.
I honestly don't want to let go of someone I love again. Like what jw always say, as long as we love each other, we can overcome each and every obstacle in our way. I believe it's through obstacles that a couple learns and understands each other better.
It's not that I wanna dwell in the past, but I believe that everyone has his own unique history, and it's our own life experiences that make us grow and mature and become better people. Looking back into the past lets me think about the person I was, and the person I am now.
Do you realise how much you've changed, say from secondary school till now? How have you matured, or are you still a child at heart? How has your thinking liberalised or changed? How has your love life developed and what have you learnt from failed relationships?
For me, I was once a silly fool and an idiot who let go of a very precious love. Don't ask me why. I don't know what happened either. Probably I got too immersed in uni and hall life, that I took the love I had for granted and thought it would be always here to stay. Till one day, it finally dawned on me that the love was gone. He was gone, and never to come back to my side again. I was such a fool. I realised what I've let go of, and no amount of tearing is going to help because he already had someone new. He told me about the hurt I had inflicted on him back then, and how it took him so much to move on. It was then after that the pain came through to me, but I knew I had to move on too, no matter how much strength it would take.
Please, don't be like me. Don't realise your mistake only when it's too late. It ain't easy in this world to find a person whom you truly love, and who loves you just as deeply in return. When two people fall in love, there ain't no promise that the love will be eternal. But you gotta try and not give up easily or you may never find it again.
I don't know why I'm thinking about this so much tonight. I went throught the box in my home that's filled with these past memories. The gifts, the letters, the cards, the love that was buried in the past. There will always be a mark in my life, because I can never make up for my grave mistake.
I learnt my lesson the hard way, but I swear I will not let myself repeat that mistake again. My fate brought jw to me, and we've stuck together through the sun and the rain for more than 3 years now. My longest love so far. Sure, there were times when I wanna give up, times when I thought he's not the right guy for me. BUT, I tell myself to stop having negative thoughts anymore for the simple fact that I love him. The one thing I'm sure of is that I don't wanna lose him. Never Ever. I will kill myself if I make the same mistake that I made 4 years back.
I honestly don't want to let go of someone I love again. Like what jw always say, as long as we love each other, we can overcome each and every obstacle in our way. I believe it's through obstacles that a couple learns and understands each other better.
Perhaps the little Shuang back in the past has really grown up abit.. Sure, there's a long way to go ahead.. But as long as she holds on to her belief and her positivity in life and love, happiness will come her way..
"I know we could both go on with our lives, and we would both be fine. But I have seen what we can be like together. And I choose us."
The Family Man
~Summer~ 1:18 AM